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Is there life after opiates? Yes, there is.
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    readytobebetter is offline New Member
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    Default Is there life after opiates? Yes, there is.

    Hi all,

    I just wanted to take the time to give some moral support to anyone out there that's lying in bed, sweating, anxious as all hell, feeling like seconds are days, no will to live, no laughter, etc. etc. etc. know that it will get better.

    I know. You want to scream "BS!" at me. But, here's the deal.

    After three years on oxy, with my highest dose getting up to 300mg daily, I decided to stop. I was a pain management patient, but in hind sight, it sure as heck wasn't all about the pain. Oxy stopped my chronic anxiety, helped with the pain, and was the holy grail in terms of making me feel like all was right with the world.

    But, anyone who's been on them long enough knows how the story progresses. You have to take more and more and then your body starts shutting down. You can't ???? and you swell and get all toxic.

    At 32 I even stopped getting my period. The doc insisted it had nothing to do with the pills, but low and behold, as soon as I stopped my period came back like clockwork.

    Anyway, I tried suboxone and got thrown into precipitated withdrawal. SUCKED! Not just that, but it made me feel cracked out and to top it off I was still showing withdrawal signs, so I stopped and went the cold turkey route.

    I know how all of you feel. Trust me. It was the worst experience of my life. And it did NOT "get better every day."

    I think that's the single most important thing to keep in mind. I thought that for sure I would never laugh, smile, live, stop tweaking out again. This went on for weeks and weeks. The depression feels like Dementors have sucked your soul.

    But, don't panic.

    I did. I felt like something was wrong... and I guess something was: all these extra opiate receptors screaming, my brain not squirting happy juice, my body purging all kinds of terrible things, etc.

    It's physical and psycological and it needs to run its course.

    I swear to God that today, I can look back and actually say that it was worth it and that I never, as long as I live, want to go through the Valley of the Shadow of friggin death that never comes, again.

    You will live again. You will not always look and feel like a mole-creature. Very hard to believe, I know.

    You can do this. Serve your sentence, it will take as long as it takes.

    Remember, dependence is in the body, addiction is in the mind. You're fighting a war, but every day served is another day closer to freedom.

    Do I still think about it? Of course. Heck, my husband told me he was leaving me on week 8...just as I was starting to feel like there was a chance that I might not feel like killing myself all day every day.

    I had thought that for sure I would relapse if something big like this happened, but you know what? Eff it all. If there's one thing that I do have control over in my life it's the choice to fall back on a crutch that will lead to death or find another way to cope.

    Once the sickness, depression lifts, it's still a daily choice, but at least it's black and white. There's no gray area. You either do or you don't.

    You can do it. You really can. Believe in yourself and hold on to the hope that it will take time, but it will get better.

    Took 8 weeks, and every one of those days felt like YEARS, before I felt halfway human. But 8 weeks isn't too long in the grand scheme of things.

    Hang in there and be kind to yourself.

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    Hi. I am definetly feeling the pain of my second day clean and sober, no outside influences. I'll start by saying that I have struggled with opiate abuse for the past eight years. But it has only been the last year that I started doing oxy. Which in my opinion is the belly of the beast. I was snorting 60-120 mgs a day. It is a well known fact that these things are expensive and the habbit gets really hard to maintain. This has left me and my sweetie little choice but to quit. I have been laying in my bed in my dark room just keeping my hands and mind busy on my keyboard. This is a great community to share your voice with others of like mind. This is a really tricky process because there is still a huge voice in my head that tells me to use again. But I know exactly where that will lead.. broke and suicidal!
    I am fortunate to be able to lay in bed all day, I know lots who do not have this luxury. For that I am greatful, for this time is helping me more than I can put into words. One big question for those who have been successful, What do I do when the big bad cravings come? Or when life starts to be too much? I'll be honest, it is these two things that have caused me to relapse in the past. Wish all you poppers the best of luck! drink thera flu and put some cozy seats on like me. Love Roxyhell

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    I am on day 12 of being off oxycodone. Im 20 years old and have been on blues for about a year and a half. It all started when i finished my first full year of college. I came home for summer break thinking it was going to be like any other summer. But i was definitely wrong. Basically me and my best friend were out partying one night and he had some pills. I knew exactly what they were. Ive heard about them and i knew what they could do to people, but i thought there was no way it was going to happen to me. Next thing i knew i was eating them everyday and i wanted more and more. So i started going to pain management clinics in south florida...Thats when it all started to get out of control. I was crushing up 10-15 a day and if i really wanted to have a good time at night I would be snorting 20 of them throughout the day.

    My story isnt exactly like everyone elses i know back in my hometown. Alot of my friends have nothing going for them and werent in school or working. I go to a major university in Tampa fl and study biochemistry. I was able to go to school do all of the studying that was required, i was able to pass all of my classes with A's and B's. But i just felt horrible about myself and lying to my mom and grandma about where all my money was going. So to make this story short, i had had enough with being controlled by oxycodone and waking up in the morning and going straight to my desk to snort 3 of them just to get out of my house and make it to school. It was finally time to quit.

    In my home town, there is some sort of opiate addiction specialist doctor and he and some guy came up with a medicine that makes your endorphin receptors "feel full" like you just got your fix. Its is injected into your upper arm via a shot. It is painless and the worst part of the whole process is sweating and minor hot/cold flashes. Along with the shot, they give you these lozenges that you put under your tongue. They are called Butro(basically the same as suboxone). However, they do not make you feel high like suboxone and for some reason, they dont make you want more and more. I havent had to use one the lozenges in about 8-9 days.

    The hardest part of being off of these pills is the feeling of loosing my best friend. No matter how good or bad of a day i was having, i always knew i was going to have my pills with me to cheer me up. I have lost motivation in school and i just want to sit around and do nothing. This is the worst part of it all. I dont know what to do with my self. It seems like being sober isnt as great as it seemed. But i know in the long run it will be. I guess time is truly the only thing to make things better.

    and by the way, sorry if this post seems kind of "rocky" trying to read through it. Im not the best of writers.

    Best regards to everyone out there trying to quit opiates or any drug. It is by far one of the roughest rides i have ever been through.

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    I can HONESTLY say "YES" there is a life after addiction.... I just spent the GREATS hour I have had with my wife & daughter in all places...... * *****The GYM ***** I worked out so hard while my girls were getting their cardio in & then spent the rest of the time teaching my daughter the correct way to use the equipment in there & she has ALWAYS been 1 to listen to me & did exactly as I told her & she impressed me incredibly.....
    Who would have ever imagined this???? I am in HEAVEN & not taking pills.
    So to everyone out there YES THERE IS AN AMAZING LIFE AFTER ADDICTION!!!!
    I am living proof.....
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    i'm glad to read this. today is my seond day off of opiates, first day on suboxine. i am depressed as hell. so far, being sober sucks. please tell me it gets better.
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    TRUST ME it is AMAZING!!!!!! Go back & read some of my posts & you will see just "PART" of the hell I have been thru & then read my last post.
    You can do this & I am telling you it is worth it...
    IT IS WORTH IT!!!!!!
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    Thank you for this!! I have been through it too many times to even count, but this does make me feel better. I think I'm more ready to face the hell than I ever was. I'll probably be back to read this many times!
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    I can tell you I must have pushed a bit too hard too fast because I'm suffering today BUT can feel the pain from excersizing so all I would tell all of you once you get to where you can start do it slowly & let everyone know what your doing incase you need help. Now today I'm going along with my family to Bush Gardens & going to enjoy every second of it because they are who I went thru the hell I did for so its time to enjoy them. Will not be easy but they do understand. I can't wait to feel the rush from a roller coaster without pills.
    God Bless
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    Disabledleo, Do you live in tampa? Cuz thats where I go to school. Small world

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    Mike no I do not live in tampa...
    But yes its a small world in many other ways.
    Had a wonderful day with my wife all day. I had to really push myself hard & just about fell out & she had me sit down & rest awhile because she knows how hard I'm trying. I even left the house without any meds but she made me turn around to get something because she "KNEW" I would need something but pushed thru it not taking ANYTHING until the very end of the trip to be able to get everyone home safe. & even then just took a small piece of a 15 mg & hurt horrible the entire drive home but would not take anymore & still have not tonight. Laying in bed cramping up knotting up & pain shooting all over my body. The day spent with a wonderful women & my best friend was worth the pain I suffer.
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    Default ReadyToBeBetter...thank you.

    Thank you. These are def the kind of posts that help people keep going to get through. I need it..and it helped ALOT!
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    Hello to everyone that is fighting to get to the other side. Just alittle about myself, i'm a 50yr old male with an addictive personality. You might want to say that i'm addicted to addiction! I had herniated my two lower disc's in 1995 at work. Being a steelworker it's not hard to do. I was a worker's comp. Doctors dream. Cha-Ching! He kept me medicated with perc. 7.5's, 6 to 8 a day until my surgery in 2001. That is when the percs. should have ended. Instead my surgeon introduced me to oxycotin. Bad news, i loved them. Not on them very long. So I had to go back to my W/C Dr. and he put me back on perc's. 10/325's 6 to 8 a day with a nice little box of fentynal patches. I thought i was set up nice. WRONG. Over the next 10yrs. i have turned into the person that i did not want to be. I've detoxed 4 times in the past 2yrs. The 1st.& 2nd. in a detox center. July 2009 & April 2010. Both times i made it 30 day's after 6 days of detox. Not very encouraging. So i tried it on my own July 2010. 3 full weeks of hell, and made it 60 days. Getting closer Because of this site that i have found and been following, i went back to detox cntr. 4-11-11. I know this time im going to make it, because of what i've heard and seen on this site. Sorry for being long winded. Going into my 12th day clean, again. If ur out there Robert & Malinda thanks 4 the insperation. One day at a time.
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    Sleeves, Just read your story and wanted to say that you are in my prayers, it's soo hard to conquer this addiction demon, but you can do it. I have only been off subs for two weeks now,and it's painful. I am living off ibprofen. I have also got hurt at work, have had an artificial disc put in my lower back, those BWC docs. can be just plain cruel. Had one tell me my pain was all in my head, I left that place crying. I was only 17 when I hurt my back, and it changed my life dramatically. I was also on oxy's, then fentanyl, so we kinda had simalar stuff going on. Anyway, good luck, and God Bless.

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    Babystimp, You are also in my prayers. And yes we do have similar stories. BWC cut me off with no taper off time, I didn't know that they could do that. Sorry that it took me so long to respond back, I have been on vacation for 2 weeks. The good news is that I am on day 24 (opiate free). Please let me know how you are doing! God bless and Good luck.

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    Just wanted to say thanks for your post....it really gave me some support when I needed it the most up to this point

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    Smile Been There! Done That!

    Sleeves, hey! Don't give up, you have come this far, you can go a bit further!! You know they say that relapsing is all part of recovery and I've done it three times. Each time gets worse too!! I have addictive behaviors, and have the genes for addiction on my dad's side and my mom's side. Never thought I would relapse because I swore that I didn't ever want to go through the horrible detox for pain killers!! How soon we forget when one is placed right in front of you and think that this one little pill won't affect me. Yea, right!! You have to go through this enough times to be able to hold one in your hand where it literally makes you ill at the sight of it and where you can almost" taste" the bad feeling, the aches and pains, the nausea, etc.and that is when you know you have reached a victory over these addicting little demons. It worked for me and to this day, just thinking about it makes me ill!!! I have my life back, feel normal again, just the fact that I can actually "FEEL" is monumental and exciting!! I can reminisce about those times and think out loud and say, "Thank God I am no longer in that "hell-hole" with a smile from ear to ear!! Take control of those demons; it is so totally worth it!!

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    Where do I begin I'm 19 and have officially hit rock bottom. Being sober would be complete happiness to me and getting there seems like sucha difficult journey. Tomorrow morning I will begin suboxone and I guess I'll take it day by day. No one deserves what opiate addiction does but it's good to know I'm not alone all sorts of people get into this mess. We all gotta be strong and win this battle because we can't let it claim our lives I know it has claimed mine for far to long. Both my boyfrien and I will be doing this together and honestly i dont know how it will affect us since we were always used to being high together. All I know is that I hope we can both do it and everyone else out there suffering from this torture. Feedback woul be lovely. Take care!

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    Life is so much better after opiate addiction!! It may seem impossible to beat right now if your detoxing, but it can be done, IT CAN BE DONE!! I'm living proof!! After 4 relapses this year I beat it finally and I'm no longer a prisoner to pills!! These Dr's, well medically legal drug dealers don't care about you, just your money!! A real doctor will care and help you!! God bless!!

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    Exactly Bama0774, I think readytobebetter should find something to avoid the cravings and should consult any doctor who has the better solution.

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    Dear readytobebetter,

    I was formerly addicted to opiates and I have been clean now for about 10 years. I hate my life and fantasize about suicide nearly every day, but I am too afraid to actually do it. I hate myself and I hate my life. The truth is, you can only speak for yourself. Just because you feel better after quitting does not mean someone else does.

    I would argue that people who get very psychologically addicted tend to have serious mental problems and these mental illnesses do not disappear after quitting. So, statistically speaking, it is less likely that a revocering addict will be happy than a regular person because mentally ill people tend to be less happy. Again, statistically speaking (to my knowledge), most opiate addicts do not permanently escape the vicious cycle of addiction.

    The bitter, cold truth is that the universe is full of intense suffering and sometimes a nearly painless suicide is the only way to cease that pain. In my opinion, we are not doing people a favor by treating suicide as the worst option. Sometimes staying alive as a slave to addiction and experiencing chills, horrid depression, and fantasy of wishes that can not be fulfilled is the worst outcome to be feared. We are not heroes for prolonging the agony of suffering addicts.
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    My name is Daniel and my story is a bit complicated, in 2008 i was a victim of a Carjacking and my car was shot over 19 times but only 3 of those bullets struck my body 38 cal. Hollow point Bullets, 1 Bullet to my upper back, 1 Bullet to my Thigh & The last Bullet to my neck and the one in my neck is stuck there the Dr could not remove it , so its pinching a vital nerve , so my whole right side is numb , it has nerve damage , i had to learn to use my hand again and fingers since the nerves are damages so badly.. I Was prescribed Vicodin, That wouldn't help, so it went to Oxycontin, That was too expensive for me since i didn't have insurance, so then it went to morphine, those pills were just to damn harsh, so then finally i got prescribed 90 Percocet 5/325 . that helped me a lot but then i was sent to the pain management by my regular doctor for further evaluation , they upped my meds to Percocet 10/650 and the qty from 90 to 180 tablets.the pain management told me my pain would never go away so i was destined for medicine my whole life ! Im going on 7 yrs now taking Percocet and i have not been sober 1 day ! Im sick and tired of being dependent day in and day out on these pills , im broke all the time and i run out 2 weeks into the prescription, i have been contemplating so bad daily on going cold turkey but im scared cause ive been 2 hrs without my dose 2 freakin hours ! and Ive had a runny nose ive got sick real bad 2 freaking hours now imagine months ! my pain is crucial and it seems like no one understands not even the doctor due to me running out early he thinks im addicted, no u think ? so im finally going to try it ,i have 15 percocets left until my next refill in 13 days but im going to go cold turkey and pray to god it works out ! thanks to anyone who took there time to read my strory !

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    Quote Originally Posted by spreadtruth View Post
    Dear readytobebetter,

    I was formerly addicted to opiates and I have been clean now for about 10 years. I hate my life and fantasize about suicide nearly every day, but I am too afraid to actually do it. I hate myself and I hate my life. The truth is, you can only speak for yourself. Just because you feel better after quitting does not mean someone else does.

    I would argue that people who get very psychologically addicted tend to have serious mental problems and these mental illnesses do not disappear after quitting. So, statistically speaking, it is less likely that a revocering addict will be happy than a regular person because mentally ill people tend to be less happy. Again, statistically speaking (to my knowledge), most opiate addicts do not permanently escape the vicious cycle of addiction.

    The bitter, cold truth is that the universe is full of intense suffering and sometimes a nearly painless suicide is the only way to cease that pain. In my opinion, we are not doing people a favor by treating suicide as the worst option. Sometimes staying alive as a slave to addiction and experiencing chills, horrid depression, and fantasy of wishes that can not be fulfilled is the worst outcome to be feared. We are not heroes for prolonging the agony of suffering addicts.
    I am disturbed by your post. Let me just say I am extremely sorry that you feel the way you do. I can imagine how hard it must be to go through every day feeling hopeless. I am quite concerned about your suicidal thoughts. What measures have you taken to get help?

    While I feel sincere empathy for what you're going through, I find it very dangerous to suggest to other addicts that suicide is a good option. I've been on this forum for a while now. I've talked to many people (not just here but also friends, family and acquaintences) who are now sober after years of intense opiate abuse. Aside from one person, they've all expressed that life after active addiction is a million times better than abusing drugs. Obviously all these people had to go through early recovery where they felt like sh**, but they came out on the other side.

    Yes, an addict has to be on guard forever. Yes, brain chemistry changes drastically during drug abuse. But, the human body/brain is capable of healing itself over time. Where are you getting your statistics?

    I am truly sorry that you feel your only option is suicide and a life of unhappiness. That breaks my heart to hear. But, please don't encourage suicide to other people as "the only way to cease pain". That kind of talk, especially to those struggling with early recovery, is intensely dangerous.

    We're here to help and support. Let us know how we can help you.
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    EDIT TO ABOVE:

    My bad...I didn't look at the post date. Didn't realize that post was 7 mos old. Oops!
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    i know this question was put on here a while ago but people today are looking for the quick fix and the best ways to make it better or make it quicker and i am so sorry to tell you this but there is no quick fix to this but trust me it gets better and sometimes it feels like there is no light at the end of the tunnel but there is and trust me that morning you wake up and dont have to worry about how am i getting money for my drugs today or where am i going to find them it is the best feeling in the world even if you dont have your energy back or motivation. it is so much better than the alternative i can not tell you how amazing this feeling is i couldnt be more happy with my life im not so bar into my recovery but my life is starting to finally enjoy my life and i know you can also.I am coming off a 40mg 4x Hydro habit with perks thrown in the same dose and daily habbit. but i will tell you it sucks at the beg but it is so worrth it.. good luck to anyone who is trying to quit or has started the detox process all u have is time an a new amazing new life ahead of you.
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    Hello,

    I'm new to this community and first I have to say that I'm from Germany and I relocated 10 years ago. My English is not the best, since I'm barely getting out of the house anymore

    My name is Su and I live in NC. I'm in chronic pain for 15 years. I suffer from 24/7 pain and the last 15 years where living hell. I've been diagnosed with Atypical trigeminal neuralgia (TN2) and it is considered to be one of the most painful afflictions known to medical practice. Probably caused by dental treatment 15 years ago. I received 98 treatments from dentists in 5 years of living in hell. Its also called "the suicidal disease"
    My second condition, Fibromyalgia has been caused after a complete hysterectomy and my already chronic pain.

    I went to see so many doctors, healers, treatments and I can not even count on it anymore not to talk about the financial issues my condition has been caused.

    I've tried every available medication for my condition and there was nothing I could take, either it didn't help or I had the worst side effects ever thats why I ended up with Opiates.

    I also did withdrawal myself from several medications before and always had to go back on since the pain was unbearable.

    After 7 years of constantly taking Opiates I'm not myself anymore. My body has changed, my personality changed, my mind - just everything. I know there's no other way taking Opiates except a morphine pain pump.

    I need to go up with the dosage again which I've refused since. I don't think I can handle more and more....I'm just glad having the perfect Neurologist who even took over my pain management to keep me from being stressed out even more seeing a pain management every 4 weeks, which I found so ridiculous.

    I really want a live without Opiates and other medications, but I simply don't know how. I'm tired of trying and hoping for a cure or even a relieve without pain killers. I got lethargic and I'm scared to live on another probably 30 years.

    I got to a point where I don't care about anything anymore. I'm becoming a grandma and not even that bundle of joy makes me happy or exited for it.

    We are in the worst financial situation ever, I'm not even able to pay example for my MRI copay anymore. Bills and such are adding up and causing more stress on me.

    I feel like lost somewhere and I'm constantly looking to find a way out and find my old self again...

    I know you all probably don't know what to write back to me, and I'm sorry writing that of my chest.

    It feels good knowing there are people out there experience probably the same.

    Thank you for reading this

    I'M NOT GIVING UP I'm still breathing and try to enjoy some things of my live.

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    Are you still on here for someone to talk w.... I am scared and don't know how to go about my situation... Please of you are still available let me know!!

    I just wanted to take the time to give some moral support to anyone out there that's lying in bed, sweating, anxious as all hell, feeling like seconds are days, no will to live, no laughter, etc. etc. etc. know that it will get better.

    I know. You want to scream "BS!" at me. But, here's the deal.

    After three years on oxy, with my highest dose getting up to 300mg daily, I decided to stop. I was a pain management patient, but in hind sight, it sure as heck wasn't all about the pain. Oxy stopped my chronic anxiety, helped with the pain, and was the holy grail in terms of making me feel like all was right with the world.

    But, anyone who's been on them long enough knows how the story progresses. You have to take more and more and then your body starts shutting down. You can't ???? and you swell and get all toxic.

    At 32 I even stopped getting my period. The doc insisted it had nothing to do with the pills, but low and behold, as soon as I stopped my period came back like clockwork.

    Anyway, I tried suboxone and got thrown into precipitated withdrawal. SUCKED! Not just that, but it made me feel cracked out and to top it off I was still showing withdrawal signs, so I stopped and went the cold turkey route.

    I know how all of you feel. Trust me. It was the worst experience of my life. And it did NOT "get better every day."

    I think that's the single most important thing to keep in mind. I thought that for sure I would never laugh, smile, live, stop tweaking out again. This went on for weeks and weeks. The depression feels like Dementors have sucked your soul.

    But, don't panic.

    I did. I felt like something was wrong... and I guess something was: all these extra opiate receptors screaming, my brain not squirting happy juice, my body purging all kinds of terrible things, etc.

    It's physical and psycological and it needs to run its course.

    I swear to God that today, I can look back and actually say that it was worth it and that I never, as long as I live, want to go through the Valley of the Shadow of friggin death that never comes, again.

    You will live again. You will not always look and feel like a mole-creature. Very hard to believe, I know.

    You can do this. Serve your sentence, it will take as long as it takes.

    Remember, dependence is in the body, addiction is in the mind. You're fighting a war, but every day served is another day closer to freedom.

    Do I still think about it? Of course. Heck, my husband told me he was leaving me on week 8...just as I was starting to feel like there was a chance that I might not feel like killing myself all day every day.

    I had thought that for sure I would relapse if something big like this happened, but you know what? Eff it all. If there's one thing that I do have control over in my life it's the choice to fall back on a crutch that will lead to death or find another way to cope.

    Once the sickness, depression lifts, it's still a daily choice, but at least it's black and white. There's no gray area. You either do or you don't.

    You can do it. You really can. Believe in yourself and hold on to the hope that it will take time, but it will get better.

    Took 8 weeks, and every one of those days felt like YEARS, before I felt halfway human. But 8 weeks isn't too long in the grand scheme of things.

    Hang in there and be kind to yourself.[/QUOTE]

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    Ok so I have been addicted to painkillers for the last 2 years no need to tell u how much I took a day or any of the bad because right now I'm here to talk about after u quit now this is only my experience so lemme start by saying WOW. I am 2 weeks clean and holy >>>> o have never felt so good i never knew u could be so high on life now I have tried to quit multiple times befor this but this was the first time i actually followed thru everything and I mean EVERYTHING feels so much better nay everything feels amazing life just feels great right now I'm eating again food taste soooo goood is like it taste waaaay better then it ever did in my life smells ate amazing and I am noticing more n more smells that I wasn't smelling on opiates my taste buds are screaming my and I'm sooo happy with life I'm pleased with everything I find my self so much peppier more energy noticing my emotions
    ns again emotions that were being surpressed by the opiates I am literally high on life and life feels great and please excuse any typos and bad grammar I typed this a my smart phone and was sooooooooooooooooo excited I couldn't stop typing

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    Well done, I think you might have given others hope. I only found out today that a young girl of 28 died from a Methodone overdose on Christmas Eve, leaving two young babies without a mother and a husband without a wife. I really do admire you, I was on 5mg of Oxycodone for two weeks, I found it horrible to come off, needed it after I fell, these old muscles and bones don't hold up the same I don't know you, but I am proud of you. Hugs.

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    I have been pill sick for two years.When does it finally stop?

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    You are lucky.I have been pill sick for two long years.Cannot even go to the mailbox.No energy,throwing up,diarrhea,everything for two years.I do not think I have eaten anything in six weeks.Opiat withdrawal is not a few weeks,it is years and years of the flu times one-hundred.I know someone that was pill sick for eighteen years.He finally died,because he did not have the energy to get out of bed.

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