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    ten days
    i was given ten days to experence the highs and lows.
    to live the worst addiction that is taking so many.
    for ten days i was sniffing crystal meth.
    and i lost almost everything in ten fast days.
    i hardly ate anything and i lost 15 pounds.
    i couldnt sleep so i was awake most of ten days.
    for ten days i was an example to the one i love.
    so she could see firsthand instead of having to experence it herself.
    for ten days i ran my body to exaustion.
    and only replenished myself with more meth.
    in ten days even my appearence has changed.
    i look the same but something is missing.
    those ten days weakened my spirit so much.
    and in ten days i let everyone i know down.
    for ten days i hurt people i love without feeling remorse.
    and in those ten days i even lost who i was.
    i knew my name but couldnt recall anything else.
    for ten days i burned my nasal cavaty to bleed constantly.
    i experenced some extremly high highs.
    and in ten days i experenced the lowest of lows.
    while high i spent ten days writing in my journal.
    and i learned alot in those ten days.
    i spent most of the ten days getting high by myself.
    often by a creek that is mother earths soothing voice.
    for ten days i heard things that wernt real.
    and walked among the scaryest most realistic hallusinations.
    for ten days mother earth protected and cared for me.
    and she showed me that i was far from my path.
    in ten days i experenced so very much.
    ive learned the most valuable lesson to me.
    i realized that help was nessary for a chance of recovery.
    and in ten days i seeked out that help.
    for ten days i gave up who i was.
    for ten days i gave up my soul to a high.
    and on the tenth day i figured out exactly why.
    i had to experence those ten days as bad as they were.
    i found my first step to getting on my path.
    and mother earth provided the second step i would need.
    in ten days i finally came to the conclusion.
    that i needed to live those ten days for myself and for you too.
    for ten days i watched my life fall away.
    and for ten days i didnt care about anything but the drug.
    i needed those ten doys to hit rock bottom.
    it cost me ten days of my life to write this for you.
    i just hope i can inspire people to avoid the poison crystal meth.
    because it dosnt like to let you go after ten days.
    in most cases ten days leads to a short meaningless life.
    after ten days i know i dont want anything to do with that life.
    and i hope i can help you to not want it too..............
    bugz

    i am now 11 days strait and if what i wrote touched you please e-mail me or if you just want someone to chat with ive spent 14 years on hard drugs and 10 days on meth changed my life. your feedback is appreciated..... bugz1@telus.net good luck love can overcome!

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    Thanks for sharing your story and it has inspired me for later tonight when I talk with my friend. Can you write to me and tell me the best way to approach my friend to tell her i think she has a problem with pain killers? I am scared?

    Thanks


    i was given ten days to experence the highs and lows.
    to live the worst addiction that is taking so many.
    for ten days i was sniffing crystal meth.
    and i lost almost everything in ten fast days.
    i hardly ate anything and i lost 15 pounds.
    i couldnt sleep so i was awake most of ten days.
    for ten days i was an example to the one i love.
    so she could see firsthand instead of having to experence it herself.
    for ten days i ran my body to exaustion.
    and only replenished myself with more meth.
    in ten days even my appearence has changed.
    i look the same but something is missing.
    those ten days weakened my spirit so much.
    and in ten days i let everyone i know down.
    for ten days i hurt people i love without feeling remorse.
    and in those ten days i even lost who i was.
    i knew my name but couldnt recall anything else.
    for ten days i burned my nasal cavaty to bleed constantly.
    i experenced some extremly high highs.
    and in ten days i experenced the lowest of lows.
    while high i spent ten days writing in my journal.
    and i learned alot in those ten days.
    i spent most of the ten days getting high by myself.
    often by a creek that is mother earths soothing voice.
    for ten days i heard things that wernt real.
    and walked among the scaryest most realistic hallusinations.
    for ten days mother earth protected and cared for me.
    and she showed me that i was far from my path.
    in ten days i experenced so very much.
    ive learned the most valuable lesson to me.
    i realized that help was nessary for a chance of recovery.
    and in ten days i seeked out that help.
    for ten days i gave up who i was.
    for ten days i gave up my soul to a high.
    and on the tenth day i figured out exactly why.
    i had to experence those ten days as bad as they were.
    i found my first step to getting on my path.
    and mother earth provided the second step i would need.
    in ten days i finally came to the conclusion.
    that i needed to live those ten days for myself and for you too.
    for ten days i watched my life fall away.
    and for ten days i didnt care about anything but the drug.
    i needed those ten doys to hit rock bottom.
    it cost me ten days of my life to write this for you.
    i just hope i can inspire people to avoid the poison crystal meth.
    because it dosnt like to let you go after ten days.
    in most cases ten days leads to a short meaningless life.
    after ten days i know i dont want anything to do with that life.
    and i hope i can help you to not want it too..............
    bugz

    i am now 11 days strait and if what i wrote touched you please e-mail me or if you just want someone to chat with ive spent 14 years on hard drugs and 10 days on meth changed my life. your feedback is appreciated..... bugz1@telus.net good luck love can overcome!
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    hi there im sorry to hear about your friend but ill tell you what i know from my experence with painkillers. i had a kidney that ruptured 3 years ago(due to exess drug use)and i could just walk in to the hospital holding my stomach screaming and they would give me a month worth of morphine. I put an end to that by being a little toohigh and bragging to a nurse that they were supporting my herion habit for free. that got me cut off and its all over my medical file now i cant even get tylenol with codiene. Now if your friend dosnt know or believe she has a problem you should be careful how you put it too her so she dosnt get offended. i threw away friends who tried to tell me my addictions were out of control. More then anything you need to be a loving, supportive freind and slowly tell her your conserns and tell her how mush she means to you and everybody in her life. If shy gets defencive or angry drop the subject for a month or so you dont want to damage your friendship. But by talking about it even a little bit it gets her thinking about it and she may realize your right after some time to reflect on it. More then anything keep being her friend and be supportive no matter the outcome. Most of the time addicts have to hit rock bottom befor they will admit to themselves that they have a problem. i had a hundred or more people tell me i had a problem but i didnt want to hear it so i didnt listen and i pushed friends away who wouldnt drop it. in detox i met a middle aged woman who was addicted to perkacets. she never used them to get high, she took a quarter pill every 6 hours for years and ended up having to take them. 6 days in detox and she was feeling better and i dont know but i believe she is gonna make it. we all have a path to walk and we need to help those people whos paths we cross even if its just by telling them your there for them and you always will be. your friend will come around and when she does she will need you to help her through it. Painkillers are tricky since it is pretty much legal to use them even in excess use. but for sure speak to her about your conserns and watch carefully the reaction you get. if she agrees be supportive enough to go with her to get help. its really alot easyer to go ask for help if someone who cares for you is a rock by theyre side because at times they will need to be held up by a friend. i was lucky enough that my karebear (my girlfriend) was supportive enough to come with me when i went into addiction services for help. after 14 year the only people who havent given up on me are my karebear and one friend named dan. my family dosnt want to hear from me anymore and that hurts because i know that im the reason they for it. in 14 years ive hurt them and stold from them too much and they gave up. i consider myself luck to have dan and karebear after that crystal meth run. now my biggest desire is to use all ive learned in 14 years as an addict to help people avoid the pain ive somehow survived. Be most of all a friend. If you get a negitave reaction let it rest, she'll have heard it and at night she will mull it over and think about it and hopefully realize that maybe your right. IF YOU GET A POSITIVE REACTION OFFER TO GO WITH HER TO SEEK HELP,ADDICTS DONT LIKE ASKING For help even if they really know they need it. asking even a friend for help can be really hard. and if all goes well the first step is to get detoxed. i went to a detox center in a city and it was really hard. i left befor i should have but my karebear took me camping in the middle of nowhere for a few days and that was so awsome. i highly suggest that a stay in nature away from everything is even better then a detox center. in detox everybody only talks about then and there and the trips they have gone on and theyre highs. I found that the easyest way is to live totally in the here and now. you get hung up on the past and it brings cravings. if you worry about how you arnt ever going to use again it causes stress that can make you relapse. i find the easyest way is to only worry about today. You see by not dreaming about past drug experences or stressing over how am i going to never get high again i only tell myself "i wont get high today" and that frees my mind to concentrate only on what im typing in this letter. here and now is importand,then and there are big triggers to relapse. most of all just be a supportive friend and make sure your friend knows you arnt going ditch her, make her sure that your there for better or worse. hugs are great medicine and love overcomes all. i wish you good luck and ill be sending earth love to both of you. e-mail me if you want or post again and tell me how things turned out. i have a good feeling about it for you and i want to know what the outcome is. have a great night and open yourself up to earth love(universal love for every being we share earth with) and im sure positive outcome will come even if it takes a while.


    good luck and thanks for caring enough for your friend to be conserned and to actually voice your conserns to her. get back to me please your both on my mind..............bugz

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