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Substance Abuser In Need of Help and Support
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    jakevaughn31 is offline New Member
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    Hello to all. I am new to this site and happy to have found this forum. I have enjoyed reading some of the success stories of people overcoming their abuse problems. A little background about myself. I am thirty one years old and have an insurance agency that my father opened and that I currently run with my sister. I have been married since 2009 and my daughter was born in 2010 (she just turned four). For years I have went back and forth with the idea that I have had a problem with substances. I am now ready to admit that I am in fact an addict. I am not ready to admit this anywhere other than this aynomos (sp) forum. I have had issues dealing with my stresses for a long time, since high school really. I started binge drinking in my freshman year (2001) of college. That progressed into an everyday marijuana habit by my sophomore year(2002). I got into clonapin and adderal my senior year(2004) of college after coming back from studying in England. After graduating in college I went to law school(2005). I lasted a year. I would have my friend from college mail me adderal and I managed to get a prescription to xanax at that time. I also would drink, smoke marijuana, and even occasionally put stuff up my nose. I worked as a waiter and would get pain pills from the cooks. Needless to say that year in law school did not work out and I flunked out after the first year. It was humliating.

    When I came back from college I moved in with my sister (2006) and with no other options began working at my fathers insurance agency. I was a bit of a free spirit throughout those years and thought drugs and alcohol helped bring out creativty and was part of being a young adult. The people I looked up to and took their words to heart (mostly musicians, writers, directors, ect.) all glamorized drinks and drugs. So I just believed this to be natural. Sometime in 2006 I got a prescription to vicodin along with my prescription to xanax. So I was drinking and smoking weed and taking pills. I have found journals I wrote in back in 2007, saying that I needed to change my ways. I have also been overweight my entire life. Anywhere from 10lbs to 60lbs depending on the season. My wife and I went to high school together but were not romantically involved until the fall of 2007, when we began dating. This began a new chapter in my life.

    The first time we went to get intimate, I could not perform because of the pills in my system. I told her that and she wanted nothing to do with me, I told her it was under control and I would get nervous and that was the way I coped with my stress. She bought it. Around the same time my doctor who had been prescribing me my pills left to become a hospital doctor and referred me to another doctor who was a friend of his. He also prescribed me pills but in greater quanity (90 vicodin every 3 weeks or month, I cant remember and maybe thirty xanax) but he said he couldnt continue to prescribe to me like they had, so I found a new doctor. At the time I justified it by saying his staff was rude with the way they handled the situation and found a new doctor. The new doctor was very strict and made me get an MRI which showed a slipped vertabre in my neck (from HS wrestling). So why pain and anxiety did exist, I don't believe it my circumstances were enough to justify me getting what I was prescribed. Around 2008/2009 I stopped smoking marijuana regularly but was still dealing with the pain pill issue. The new Dr prescribed me 30 pills a month, so I was always running short. My mother is prescribed vicodin for horrible migranes she gets and my father has been in poor health and was always prescribe vicodin, though he rarely took them. My mother would give me some to last me when I was short and I would pay her back. This has contintued until this day. I badger and badger her and lie and manipulate and guilt her until she will give them to me. She is beyond over the whole situation.

    I am kind of getting ahead of myself. The third doctor prescribed for me from about 2009 to 2011. She then told me she would stop prescribing as well. During those years I wanted to stop and would set times to stop. The birth of my daughter didn't stop me, neither did turning thirty. I found my fourth doctor in 2011 and she prescribed me my xanax but referred me to a pain specialist for the vicodin, after a year of her prescribing them to me. So, since 2012 I have been going to a pain clinic and getting 60 to 90 vicodin a month and still running short. I don't drink because I take the pills and I am scared of dying. Occasionaly I will smoke marijuana, but the last few times I have eaten edibles and have had horrible experiences, the last one was in November and I had a nervous breakdown, where I wanted my wife to take me to the hospital, but she said I would have to tell them everything which I refused.

    As of right now I take vicodin, xanax, and occasionaly smoke marijuana. I have of course used all the methods to try to get pills early, making up stories to the pharmacist, switching pharmacies, telling lies, whatever I needed to do to get those pills. Finally, after time and time again of swearing to my mother on her life that I would not ask her again, she has held her ground and has refused to "spot" me any longer. I took my prescriptions to a different pharmacy and they advised they could not fill my vicodin until a week from tomorrow. So I will be without until then. Now is my chance to stop, that way I can say I did it on my own terms. I am still having issues.

    My father is fighting for his life and has been in the hospital for the past two months, I have finacial issues, I know I am addicted to pain pills and I do not want to take pain pills any more. Today I took four tramdol. After reading all the testimonials on this site, I decided not to take any more substances. But then my heart started racing and I felt ill and I took a xanax. Is it possible to take xanax while getting off of the pain pills? There is much more to the story, but I only have so much time before my wife comes back, and I do not want her to know about this now. I want to overcome it and then I would be willing to come clean. I am started on this past Monday to see a therapist under the guise of overeating issues (true, but not the heart of the problem) and I am slated to see her again on Monday and want to admit completety for the first time these issues.

    I believe in myself and believe I can take myself and my family to great heights. However, in order to do this I need to beat this disease. I am actually not too proud of this post. Its discombulated and is littered with spelling and gramatically errors. Also, the timeline is very sporatic. All this time I have justified I do not have a problem because I was always prescribed things and have always for the most part been very functional. Most people don't know, some people think I had a problem in the past with prescriptions drugs but no longer do. Im looking for feedback, support, ideas on how to overcome this, and advice. I would like to thank anyone in advance for any help you may be willing to provide. I keep thinking of more things that add to this story, but this will have to for now.

    The final thing, I do not want to stop taking xanax right now. I do not take it all the time but I feel as if it is needed, as I do not have the time or money to deal with my anxieties in natural ways.

    Thanks,

    Jake

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    1st what is your daily amount MG of hydrocodone? You should worry about the opiates before the xanax one thing at a time. I would personally recommend you don't refill your script and just ride it out even if you were taking norco x3 a day that would only be 30mg within 4 days you will be feeling better and within a week you should be doing a lot better. DON'T take any more trams those are bad news. I c/t off 80mg oxycontin daily and tapered down from upwards of 240mg daily on opiates for a decade. 1000 pill is never enough and 1 pill is to many. Trust me if you keep taking the pain pills you will have wished in the future this was the time you kicked the junk.

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    The strength is 5/500. Is narco the same as vicodin? I take anywhere from one a day to five a day. Somedays I convince myself its not a problem, but I know it is. I get irritated and unhappy when not on them, but I am able to take on the world when I have taken one. I believe it is more mental than physical but I could be wrong. I also get spasms and have stomach problems as well. It's a hard thing to deal with and come to grips with. Thanks for the response!

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    No Norco is 10/325 so twice as much hydrocodone per pill. So if you were taking 15mg daily you should have very mild withdraws probably 3 days with restless leg nausea sweating chills basically a flu with bone and joint pain you are very lucky it's not a higher dose.
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