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    This is for everyone who is going through the nightmare of being a prisoner to prescription drugs and finally has the courage to get off of them.

    My story sounds a lot like everyone else here, just different details. I am a 35 year old attractive woman who is highly educated, very healthy, and active and I had a normal, good, productive life. I was in a car accident in my final year of my honors degree and that is when my life plummeted from happy to chaos and I was prescribed by my overzealous doctor way too much Oxycocet. Now, doctor is a lose term as in his case, he was an overpaid drug dealer who knew and saw first hand what these opiates were doing to me but for some reason, kept dolling them out until I decided....NO MORE! When I say my life plummeted, that would be an understatement; it sky dived off a cliff into hell, under hell....I went from just moving out with my wonderful fiance, last year of school, 3.8 GPA, clean and sober never got a parking ticket, straight A and arrow life with an incredible future ahead of me to PILLS - counting, cutting, desperation, agitation, terror. I lost all my friends, left my fiance, had two abusive relationships, one where he almost killed me and broke my humerus bone with his bare hands, (I have a metal plate and screws in my left arm forever now), got into illegal drugs, was drugged and sexually assaulted, then started drinking to take away the emotional pain, numb to the world is all I wanted, lived in a woman's shelter for abuse victims in an undisclosed location for extra security. I went up to drinking 60 oz a day of pure vodka, (I'm 118 pounds). I had severe PTSD and couldn't leave my house. My mom and I who were attached at the hip had a horribly broken relationship, in fact I had no relationships except for the abusive, lowest of the low enablers in my life. I'ts ironic that pain killers is what began my sudden decent into this hell as instead of killing pain, they induced a hundred lifetimes of pain that I wouldn't wish on my worse enemy.

    Long story short, after 7, yes, 7 years of hell, I was at deaths door, I never gave up, I was always trying to get better but one thing happened after the next and I kept scrambling to deal and to pick myself up which was impossible to do with being in the state I was in, time had different meaning back then and it just added up so quickly. Then I had a seizure, and then another....that's when I finally confided in my mom, "mom, I don't want to die", and I felt very close to dying. We went to an addiction specialist and he got me onto suboxone. I almost immediately stopped drinking (by then I had tapered down from vodka to boxes of wine), and 4 years later, here I am. In between those 4 years, I went back to school to finish a second degree, lost the 49 pounds that I gained from drinking (167 lbs to 118 lbs), I got "ripped" at the gym, ran my first half marathon, Spartan and Mud Hero, and started fitness modelling. I also reestablished and repaired lost and broken relationships, most importantly with my dear mother. Am I back to 100%, gosh no. I'm still on disability, I don't work, (except for the part time modelling) and I sleep 10 hours a day because of the suboxone. All in all my life is happy and good but the last thing that doesn't fit, (like the Sesame Street song, "one of these things doesn't belong" is the pills.

    I have tapered all the way down to one 2 mg pill and tomorrow I am going down to half of that. I have been on it for 4 years and have been trying for 2 years to get off of this, tapering slowly and it never works, I always "need it" because I had a tough day at the gym, or a pick me up before I go out with a friend as I'm nervous and I want to feel the euphoria sub gives me of not caring as much and relaxing and it really does (I think) make me happier, like I'm on a cloud, slightly tethered to the ground, in the ether between bliss and reality. But I want to go back to living without a crutch that ends up acting more like a ball and chain. I don't want to sleep this much, with always pin point pupils, not loving going to the washroom, have a normal circulatory system, and I want children, I want to be finally sober after 10 long grueling years of this life lived in a mist at best, hell fire at worst. So here goes, I'm splaying myself open for the world of people who are like me, people who are tired of this dependency but are absolutely terrified of the consequences of withdrawal. I'll give you the specifics of what i'm going through, the good the bad and the ugly, and yes I'm sure it will get pretty damn ugly.

    Until tomorrow, when I half my dose.
    Cheers friends.
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    Quote Originally Posted by MHPhoenix View Post
    This is for everyone who is going through the nightmare of being a prisoner to prescription drugs and finally has the courage to get off of them.

    My story sounds a lot like everyone else here, just different details. I am a 35 year old attractive woman who is highly educated, very healthy, and active and I had a normal, good, productive life. I was in a car accident in my final year of my honors degree and that is when my life plummeted from happy to chaos and I was prescribed by my overzealous doctor way too much Oxycocet. Now, doctor is a lose term as in his case, he was an overpaid drug dealer who knew and saw first hand what these opiates were doing to me but for some reason, kept dolling them out until I decided....NO MORE! When I say my life plummeted, that would be an understatement; it sky dived off a cliff into hell, under hell....I went from just moving out with my wonderful fiance, last year of school, 3.8 GPA, clean and sober never got a parking ticket, straight A and arrow life with an incredible future ahead of me to PILLS - counting, cutting, desperation, agitation, terror. I lost all my friends, left my fiance, had two abusive relationships, one where he almost killed me and broke my humerus bone with his bare hands, (I have a metal plate and screws in my left arm forever now), got into illegal drugs, was drugged and sexually assaulted, then started drinking to take away the emotional pain, numb to the world is all I wanted, lived in a woman's shelter for abuse victims in an undisclosed location for extra security. I went up to drinking 60 oz a day of pure vodka, (I'm 118 pounds). I had severe PTSD and couldn't leave my house. My mom and I who were attached at the hip had a horribly broken relationship, in fact I had no relationships except for the abusive, lowest of the low enablers in my life. I'ts ironic that pain killers is what began my sudden decent into this hell as instead of killing pain, they induced a hundred lifetimes of pain that I wouldn't wish on my worse enemy.

    Long story short, after 7, yes, 7 years of hell, I was at deaths door, I never gave up, I was always trying to get better but one thing happened after the next and I kept scrambling to deal and to pick myself up which was impossible to do with being in the state I was in, time had different meaning back then and it just added up so quickly. Then I had a seizure, and then another....that's when I finally confided in my mom, "mom, I don't want to die", and I felt very close to dying. We went to an addiction specialist and he got me onto suboxone. I almost immediately stopped drinking (by then I had tapered down from vodka to boxes of wine), and 4 years later, here I am. In between those 4 years, I went back to school to finish a second degree, lost the 49 pounds that I gained from drinking (167 lbs to 118 lbs), I got "ripped" at the gym, ran my first half marathon, Spartan and Mud Hero, and started fitness modelling. I also reestablished and repaired lost and broken relationships, most importantly with my dear mother. Am I back to 100%, gosh no. I'm still on disability, I don't work, (except for the part time modelling) and I sleep 10 hours a day because of the suboxone. All in all my life is happy and good but the last thing that doesn't fit, (like the Sesame Street song, "one of these things doesn't belong" is the pills.

    I have tapered all the way down to one 2 mg pill and tomorrow I am going down to half of that. I have been on it for 4 years and have been trying for 2 years to get off of this, tapering slowly and it never works, I always "need it" because I had a tough day at the gym, or a pick me up before I go out with a friend as I'm nervous and I want to feel the euphoria sub gives me of not caring as much and relaxing and it really does (I think) make me happier, like I'm on a cloud, slightly tethered to the ground, in the ether between bliss and reality. But I want to go back to living without a crutch that ends up acting more like a ball and chain. I don't want to sleep this much, with always pin point pupils, not loving going to the washroom, have a normal circulatory system, and I want children, I want to be finally sober after 10 long grueling years of this life lived in a mist at best, hell fire at worst. So here goes, I'm splaying myself open for the world of people who are like me, people who are tired of this dependency but are absolutely terrified of the consequences of withdrawal. I'll give you the specifics of what i'm going through, the good the bad and the ugly, and yes I'm sure it will get pretty damn ugly.

    Until tomorrow, when I half my dose.
    Cheers friends.
    Welcome to the forum. Quite a story, I'm glad you made it through all of that! If I were you I wouldn't cut my sub dose from 2mg to 1mg, that drop is a little too much, you very well could feel the effects of dropping by that much? If you are stable on your current dose (stable meaning very little to no withdrawal symptoms) then I would cut your dose to 1.5mg/day! The protocol that many, many people have used here with great success is Robert's sub therapy/taper plan. The taper calls for 25% reductions every 4-5 days or so, sometimes a day or two longer? You don't make a reduction until you're completely stable on the current dose, this is very important! Also, just as important is to take your sub dose at the same time everyday! Here's a link to Robert's sub taper plan - https://www.drugs.com/forum/suboxone...apy-66109.html
    You can skip the induction part of the plan because you are already taking subs. If you follow Robert's plan exactly as outlined you can get off the subs with very little discomfort. Thanks for sharing your story. Keep us updated throughout your journey? Best of luck to you... God bless us all!

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    Are you dosing once or twice per day? Are you using sub film or tabs?
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    Hi MHPheonix. It is amazing how one little pill can turn our lives around and before you know it months turn into years. You know what though? I have the hope that our lives can be turned right back around as soon as we are ready to fight for it. You sound motivated and ready and I can't wait to read your progress. I started my taper a couple of weeks ago and getting ready to drop to .75mg tomorrow. You are welcome to talk or vent on my thread as we will probably be going through some of the same things together. Take care and God blesss!
    XoXo
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    Default Suboxone Tapper Day 3

    I'm not sure why it was erased, maybe it was too long, because I didn't have any profanity....but I'll post this again, a little shorter.

    Hi Ricky and all, thank you very much for the welcome, I have never written a blog on anything before and having even a couple people be so kind and welcoming is nourishing to the soul. As for Robert, yes, I absolutely will be using his suggestions with not reducing until I feel leveled out, I am also following Thomas's plan with the hot baths, supplements, and Valium if needed and I'm sure for the first 4 to 5 days it will be, but I am going to go quicker with the tapering. Every time I want to quit, something always comes up, I have a friend flying down to visit, my moms's birthday, the summer, cant be sick in the summer can we? There's always a very good reason not to take a tail spin into a self induced nightmare flu followed by a long of a depression, (duration personal and unknown), regaining your dopamine, serotonin and endorphin levels. This time I'm using my best friend's shower which I am planning (on March 18th) to be good for. I know it's pressure, but I'm using a date for me for the first time instead of against me in the reasoning why I can't go off of it. I have tried to get off of suboxone tapering slowly for such a long time that I have decided to rip off the band-aide and do it quick but smart at the same time and I feel really really good! I have seen so much pain and suffering on these blogs with the withdrawal and it has scared me so much that I've kept on pushing it back and back. I very much appreciate everyone's honesty in their hard times and I will also be 100% honest but will be putting as much positivity as I can grasp within this process. I did not post yesterday as I wrote in a journal and I wanted to feel the full effect of halving my dose, and today I am closer to it. I'll do the short version and the long one;

    Short - I feel really really good, like I can do this, my body seems not to be able to regulate it's temperature as well, my sweat has a sticky texture to it, my nose is runny and I was yawning a lot. But I woke up really early, had a great sleep, feel like half my brain has thawed, I feel a clarity that is so beautiful, like my neurons are chattering away, happy to be relieved of their deep slumber. Very hopeful and feeling the sun on my face, I can feel more already!

    Long journal
    (day 2 quick taper) - I didn't expect to write this much, so sorry if it's super long all

    I've been in my own little world for my entire life and in a sense, these pills have brought it to a whole "notha level". So, I'm getting off of them, almost 4 years is too long for any drug that makes you in a haze like this,
    although in my doctor's mind, I could be on them for the rest of his, I mean my life....funny error, but there is truth with it. So here goes my trial by fire. I am ripping the band-aid off with might and force and much needed courage. Today was my first day on 1, which is 50% less than what I was accustomed to and it hasn't been easy but with the negative comes the positive so if I'm getting the reward of being clean in mind body and soul, lay it on me! I'm a happy receiver. Not so much with the hard parts; feeling a little lethargic, like I didn't know what to do with myself. The gym was the hardest part (do I get points for going?) I felt very weak, and sore. For the first time I could remember, I thought about leaving the class half way through. I couldn't keep my exhausted eagle eyes off the clock and also for the first time, I though this is it, my tumultuous love affair with narcotics is over. I didn't get the same adrenaline and euphoria rush when my heart was racing, it wasn't the same and I know it never will be again, but I'm ok with that. I also felt very cold, and my sweat felt different as well, like it covered me with more cold, sticking to me with a weak glue-type texture (maybe that was my vanilla moisturizer...ha! ) but it never did that before...lol. But yes, seriously hard class which I yawned the entire way through, not because I was tired, guess its a reflex of my body rudely asking for more drugs.

    What I mostly want to talk about are the good parts. I literally felt like half or more of my brain has thawed overnight. Like I was keeping most of my intellect in my back jean pocket for years, just to bring it out, slap it on the table, proudly proclaiming, "how do you like them apples!", in my case neurons, however, "how do you like them neurons doesn't pack the same punch...give it time my friends....give it time! Anyway, I sure wouldn't be writing this with my normal dose, that says it all. I think it's a beautiful beginning to a relationship with myself and my loved ones that will very much improve. Not that it's been bad, but I sleep way too much, I feel tired yet awake all the time, like I'm a zombie on drugs; yes, I feel happy like I'm on earth but not touching the ground completely, not fully connected to it or with the people living there. I'm a balloon tethered to it, in my own hemisphere of reality, bouncing around, not doing much of anything but being with me, only bobbing my head down when these selfish drugs spare me that small window of time in reality. These drugs are not kind, they use me, not and never the other way around for a long time now. They have their claws dug deep like strings not quite pulling the dummy but they are none the less holding me down, tearing me up inside. Like a computer virus, they are hard to detect from an outside eye but they make me slower, dependent, unresponsive at times, and creating havoc others. Up and down we go. Emotions are still mine but they are more and they are less. I haven't been unplugged and had myself all to myself in such a long time. I don't even know me without drugs and that not only scares me, it shocks me. Has it been over 10 years of my life? Yes, almost a third of my life. You don't think about these things when you're living day to day, just happy not to be someone else's punching bag or drinking so much your sweat begins to smell sweet, or not sleeping for 4 days because you're terrified of what will happen if you close your eyes for more than a second because you're suffering from PTSD and night terrors and your past isn't enough past for your mind or your body to know the notion of calm or peace. (OK, we will get away from that dark unexpected place for now )

    All it takes is the courage to be yourself and oddly, I don't think that I ever gave myself credit to think that I did. So here I am, feeling like my feet have touched the ground. I feel really great about this process and will always include the truth of the pain but with it, the triumph of success in mind body and soul.

    To be continued.

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    Default Suboxone Tapper Day 4

    I feel really good, however, I went to the doctor today to get set up for the withdrawal I will be going through not this but next weekend and he refused to give me Valium for it saying that it was dangerous but it seems everyone in this forum is using one sort of benzo to help at least for the first week, even in Thomas's plan which I was going to follow, Valium was the first thing on the list. I'm Canadian, so perhaps it's more stringent regarding benzo's, I dunno. He finally decided to give me 10 5mg pills, after my pleading, hopefully this will be enough...this I also don't know and I'm feeling a lot more afraid to go through this process without ample ammunition.

    So, day 4 of cutting my dose in half from 2 mg to 1mg and I feel really good. Maybe I'm leveling off this quick, it seems to hit me more in the evenings, but right now, I'm seriously not feeling any different, yesterday was harder but manageable as it was more of of physical withdrawal than a mental so I'm very happy it's all going smoothly. If anything changes, I'll write more this evening.

    GB and Cheers all!

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    I'm glad to see you are doing good! That was a big jump from 2mg to 1mg. How long are you planning on staying at that dosage? I am very new myself but it seemed liked it took an extra day or so to feel ok at 1mg because I dropped pretty fast also but not that quick. Are you planning on doing the 25% drop after this or are you going to continue the 50% drops? There are alot of people on here that have gone through this process and have been successful and are very knowledgeable about sub taper. My advice is to get as much advice as you can. That's what I'm doing. Today is day 4 of .75 for me and as long as I am feeling ok I will be dropping to .5mg tomorrow. The support from the people here and God above is what has helped me. I have no doubt you can do this! You sound young, healthy, positive, and have the right mindset! I can't wait to hear about your progress!
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    Quote Originally Posted by MHPhoenix View Post
    I feel really good, however, I went to the doctor today to get set up for the withdrawal I will be going through not this but next weekend and he refused to give me Valium for it saying that it was dangerous but it seems everyone in this forum is using one sort of benzo to help at least for the first week, even in Thomas's plan which I was going to follow, Valium was the first thing on the list. I'm Canadian, so perhaps it's more stringent regarding benzo's, I dunno. He finally decided to give me 10 5mg pills, after my pleading, hopefully this will be enough...this I also don't know and I'm feeling a lot more afraid to go through this process without ample ammunition.

    So, day 4 of cutting my dose in half from 2 mg to 1mg and I feel really good. Maybe I'm leveling off this quick, it seems to hit me more in the evenings, but right now, I'm seriously not feeling any different, yesterday was harder but manageable as it was more of of physical withdrawal than a mental so I'm very happy it's all going smoothly. If anything changes, I'll write more this evening.

    GB and Cheers all!

    Good Day To You -

    The only thing I don't personally like about the Thomas Recipe is the suggested use of a Benzo. Otherwise the recipe is great. Benzo's are very addictive even when used as directed by the doctor. Believe me when I tell you that you want no part of a benzo problem. Take it as a good thing he only gave you 10 of them. Please use them sparingly if at all.

    As Ricky mentioned, dropping from 2mg to 1mg is not ever recommended, but what's done is done. 50% dose reductions of sub is never suggested. You'll feel good the first couple days as the half life will hold you then that half life will catch up with you at some point. Then the rough symptoms may be an issue. My suggestion is to slow down as you go through the final dose reductions. I would reduce from 1mg to .75mg, then to .5mg, and then to .375mg, and finally .25mg. You can then do as many others, including myself have done and taper lower and/or use the day skipping process before finally jumping. The lower you reduce the best chance you have of having very few, if any symptoms. My jump was as painless as it could be. I went down to .125mg which is half of .25mg. I had some lethargy and stomach issues that were quickly taken care of.

    Slow and steady always wins the sub race.

    Randy

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    Default Suboxone Tapper Day 4 and 5

    Sorry I missed a day, I was out for the most of it. So I will include day 4 as well;

    Day 4 of halving my dose from 2 to 1 mg - I feel great, I feel clear headed for the first time in a long time and it's getting better and better and better. I did have a not great sleep at all, very sweaty and chills, but I got up super early for the first time in a while and I felt refreshed. All day, I felt like I could absolutely do this. Then I went to the gym for three hours as usual (an hour of weights, cardio, then yoga), and that's when I totally felt the difference. The first class was good, not as good as usual but good, then the last two classes were brutally hard. I couldn't get warm through any of it, and these are really intense exercises. For the first time ever, I had to wear a sweater through it all which made me look a little odd...lol. I couldn't keep my eyes off the clock and just wanted to run out of class. I felt very weak and freezing and was yawning a lot. However, I got home and felt pretty normal, better than normal actually...my mom picked me up and I usually get so tired on the way home but again, for the first time, I was wide awake. I felt like my brain was working so much better than before, I felt stronger, more clear headed and sharper in every way. I also have been starting to notice the outside world more, like I feel like I can hear better, most likely because I am able to pay attention more. Either way, I feel like I'm getting to know myself all over again and I love feeling of being ON and this bright and this sharp. I feel wonderful, and the good definitely outweighs the bad.

    Day 5 - cutting dose once more in half from 1 to .5 mgs

    I had a really good non sweaty/chilly sleep last night and I feel like I've already leveled off on the half dose, as I said, I will be going off quickly, (ripping off the band aide), but in the kindest way I can. I'm just so tired of being a slave to any kind of narcotic. It's time, and I honestly feel wonderful! I know that this week will be the hardest before I get off completely in 7 days, I'm only giving myself 6 days on my new half dose (,5mg) if it is not enough, I'll give myself a day or two at most more. I have been so awake lately, I've never slept so little and been so non-drowsy in years and it's amazing. I feel like I'm adding so much more time to my days and my life, and what could be better than having such a sharper mind....it's so awesome to feel like I can do this and to reap the rewards. Everyone in my life has been all empowering and inspiring and absolutely in my corner and that really helps so much. I can't get over how alive I feel. I seriously haven't gotten up this early in years naturally. That says it all.

    If you are someone in the same predicament as me and wants to be rid of a drug, trust me when I say DO IT! i have been absolutely terrified to do this for so long, and I know that I have not yet reached the horrible phase of total withdrawal and yuck but even to get these awake hours of such beautiful and pure clarity is god sent and I wouldn't give them up for anything. It is so worth not being in a haze and until you make the step, you will never know what you're missing. I know first hand that it's very hard to put yourself through the terror of initial withdrawal pain and depression but it WILL get better and your bodies and brains and souls will love you for it! You will love yourself for it. It's the greatest gift you can give yourself, and your loved ones!

    Until tomorrow

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    So proud of you PregnantMom1977!!!! Thanks so much for your love and support....I am always a message away and am totally routing for you girl!!

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    Good Day To You -

    The only thing I don't personally like about the Thomas Recipe is the suggested use of a Benzo. Otherwise the recipe is great. Benzo's are very addictive even when used as directed by the doctor. Believe me when I tell you that you want no part of a benzo problem. Take it as a good thing he only gave you 10 of them. Please use them sparingly if at all.

    As Ricky mentioned, dropping from 2mg to 1mg is not ever recommended, but what's done is done. 50% dose reductions of sub is never suggested. You'll feel good the first couple days as the half life will hold you then that half life will catch up with you at some point. Then the rough symptoms may be an issue. My suggestion is to slow down as you go through the final dose reductions. I would reduce from 1mg to .75mg, then to .5mg, and then to .375mg, and finally .25mg. You can then do as many others, including myself have done and taper lower and/or use the day skipping process before finally jumping. The lower you reduce the best chance you have of having very few, if any symptoms. My jump was as painless as it could be. I went down to .125mg which is half of .25mg. I had some lethargy and stomach issues that were quickly taken care of.

    Slow and steady always wins the sub race.

    Randy
    Thanks for the concern with the Valium and the dosing drops. I've tried to tapper many times and it never works for me personally, I always go up and down and then end up right back to where I was in the first place or sometimes higher. This will be, yes, more difficult but I am absolutely determined to go through with it to be OK for my girlfriends baby shower March 18th. Using a date to be good and get off of this finally instead of not getting off of it because I don't want to feel sick for a particular date, is what will help me and i'm ok with feeling like I'm going to die for a week, because I know I wont, and that I will get this junk out of my system for good. We humans can withstand much more pain than we give ourselves credit for and it's worth having a clear body and mind....plus, I feel really good. As for the Valium, I've been prescribed it before for PTSD and it was never my drug of choice, I didn't like the tired feeling it gave me and I actually had prescriptions to it in which I never filled so that says it all....but yes, I do agree, it should be avoided if there is any chance of abusing it. I also agree on the slow tapper to avoid bad withdrawal but for me, I need it to be this way to get off....and I am planning to live in a bath...lol

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    Default Suboxone quick tapper Day 6, 7 and 8

    Day 6 (day 2 of halving again from 1 to 0.5 mgs) - I feel really great, had a not so good sleep, all sweaty but I got up early once again and feel like I can totally do this. The day seems to be much easier as I just take my dose, and as the day lingers, keeping myself busy is essential. Distraction is paramount for recovery, and I find myself even forgetting at times what I'm going through which says a lot. The gym was a hard one (especially the first half hour) but I managed to get through it and felt good after. I find it harder to keep warm and my body regulated but the feeling of being awake and aware of so much more is so wonderful! it's all very much worth it ten fold!.

    Day 7 (Day 3 of 0.5mg)
    - Today was my mother's birthday so I had a lot of running around to do. I admit, it was hard to get out the door today. I kept on staring at it like I had PTSD again. I felt a little anxious and had a very sweaty sleep again. But again I got up very early and felt pretty great, all be it sweaty....lol. I felt a little strung out, like of I was Gumby and I was stretched too far, but only when not distracted. I feel like if I was a car, that I'm running on empty, like I need my oil changed, my brain feels dry if that makes any sense. But I am also feeling incredible with the awareness and the feeling like I am not in a fog, like I have myself to myself once more. It's wonderful to not feel at all drugged. I really thought that I would miss it so much more than I do!

    Day 8 (Day 4 of .5)
    - Yuck, I don't feel great, I had a much less sweaty sleep though. My stomach is hurting a bit and my muscles are sore. I'm feeling like I got over the flu and don't know what to do with myself. It's tough but completely manageable. I'm going to force myself to go to the gym even if its just for a hot yoga class which are great during this time btw. A bit of sugar also helps, not to over do it but it helps keep the edge off. I would suggest suckers or hard candies to suck on. Also, honey sticks are wonderful to keep in your purse or bag, and are healthier. This is the first day where it's like ugh, this is going to suck this weekend when I completely cut this suboxone off. 4 or 5 more days until I am forever off. It feels like I have nothing in me now, I wonder how bad it will get then. What really helps me is the thought process is that it's not half as bad as a flu so far, so it's totally worth it. We are always susceptible to getting the flu and we deal with it, it's not fun but we survive. This isn't even half as bad so far and it's getting us off drugs that really damage our internal organs and brains, growing old and up healthy is totally worth any and all of this. I say, bring it on!!!

    P.S - Baths and showers are also incredible. Feeling clean on the outside, even if you feel too tired to do it, DO IT, it makes you feel like you are putting on new skin, you may not feel good inside, but making an effort on your outside appearance during this process really helps.

    Cheers all!!!

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    Default Suboxone Tapper Day 9

    Suboxone quick tapper day 9 (day 5 of halving from 1mg - 0.5mg) - Yesterday was one of the hardest days but there was still so much good in it. I did go to the gym for hot yoga and I immediately felt so much better. The hardest things many times is to get dressed and out the door, so once you do that, distraction is your best friend during this time, so it's absolutely worth the trip to the gym even for some mild stretching, especially hot yoga as for me, having the sweats and chills totally dissipates in the hot room, and my muscles definitely thank me. Today, I feel great. I'm getting up earlier and earlier, this is the first day in forever where my digestive system is regulating itself out, mild cramping but nothing horrible. For these sudden drops, personally it only takes 5 days to feel back to normal again which isn't that bad for all the good you get in return. Of course, the afternoon has a way of creeping itself up and into discomfort so I will fill that in as well. All in all, I'm once again seeing the light at the end of the tunnel and it's very bright!
    Feeling Blessed
    -M

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    Would love to get an update on your condition, MHPhoenix. I hope you stuck with it.

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