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    Hahaha...that really made me laugh this morning Lvg, thank you!

    The electric...that's the good stuff, all natural. Just like the Energies...and neuroplasticity.

    I think I was feeling a little down for a bit recently after trying to still re-mend fences with my mom and sister and ended up getting thoroughly reamed by my sister - pathetic, mopey, lonely, loser, failure with no wife and no kids and not even a house who only thinks about himself...it went on and only got worse...but that's about all i remember.

    Something about having your own family members say out loud to you for the entire neighborhood to hear all your own worst internal thoughts that we've all worked so hard to change and re-frame etc. Even though I know she doesn't know what she's talking about...something was clearly sticky there as it definitely effected my sleep and kept showing up in dreams.

    Anyway...that's a little update for now...more that's positive to follow but think i just needed to get that out. Will catch up on everyone's threads this weekend since i'm nursing a cold.

    Jeff - thank you for the kind words. Will look for your thread. Hope my thread helps you in some small way. (it's a doozy!)
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    Yep I was laughing too so thank you...
    Thank you for always being there for me from day one...
    I know the man you are. Be proud Leo I'm proud of you. You have come so far. Just keep doing what your doing one day I promise you your family is going to say how proud of you they are it takes time I promise you. Keep doing the next right thing...

    ~love u
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    Quote Originally Posted by UncleLeo View Post
    Hahaha...that really made me laugh this morning Lvg, thank you!

    The electric...that's the good stuff, all natural. Just like the Energies...and neuroplasticity.

    I think I was feeling a little down for a bit recently after trying to still re-mend fences with my mom and sister and ended up getting thoroughly reamed by my sister - pathetic, mopey, lonely, loser, failure with no wife and no kids and not even a house who only thinks about himself...it went on and only got worse...but that's about all i remember.

    Something about having your own family members say out loud to you for the entire neighborhood to hear all your own worst internal thoughts that we've all worked so hard to change and re-frame etc. Even though I know she doesn't know what she's talking about...something was clearly sticky there as it definitely effected my sleep and kept showing up in dreams.

    Anyway...that's a little update for now...more that's positive to follow but think i just needed to get that out. Will catch up on everyone's threads this weekend since i'm nursing a cold.

    Jeff - thank you for the kind words. Will look for your thread. Hope my thread helps you in some small way. (it's a doozy!)

    Hello My Friend -

    Long time, no talk! As you know my family (my ENTIRE family) would have nothing to do with me for quite some time. But eventually they did ALL come around and now all is well and we're all family again. My hope is that your sister realizes one day just how hard you've worked to get where you are today and apologize to you and tell you how proud of you she is, just was we are here. Don't let her get you down. I know, easier said than done right. That's what people kept telling me, that one day my family would realize I was a different person and they would understand that. And despite my believing it would never happen it did. So hang in there buddy.

    Randy
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    Hello Happy Monday...
    You know I don't know how to do all those fancy computer things...
    Like sisyphus I thought of you while lmao... pkZXEf304ss nuggets
    Too funny my friend...
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    So I'm up in Portland this week...been up here all week with YG visiting her ENTIRE family...

    Realized I haven't met someone's family without a pill in I don't know how long. Was both liberating and a bit frightening...

    I think it went ok. Actually never even thought about a pill tbh, which I guess is a good sign. Still exhausting tho...

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    Uncle Leo - good for you for getting out and about. Anything worth liberating yourself is worth it, don't you think? Never thinking about a pill has to be the best feeling, especially of what you went through. You were and are one tenacious person. You should be so very proud of yourself, even if every day is "wonderful" it's something. I think things will get better. I know they will. I noted you spoke of your family. As Randy said, if there was one family I didn't know if they would all get back together again and that was Randy's. Look at him now. He just kept trying and trying. He got knocked down and he picked himself up time after time. He's married now and life, I believe, for him, is one bright picture. It's attitude, nutrition, exercise. Whenever I do these things I feel so much better. It's keeping on that road that I need to work on. Keep up your good work.

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    Hey Uncleleo
    It’s not enough for some people that you became an attorney, don’t have a string of ex wives, and can run for miles. Nope. And i suspect that it will Never be Good Enuff for some folks either, no matter what u achieve. Did they always treat u like this? No wonder u felt bad!
    No offense, but ur sister sounds jealous.
    You’re a good man and a fine human being! Play your cards as you like...
    Luv ya bro
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    Wow look at you my friend...
    You have come such a long way from your first pacific northwest trip ughh to your brother's to Portland can you see me cheering.... Yea UncleLeo...

    ~docks all day buddy....
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    Hello UncleLeo...
    I wore out the energies
    I got a few suggestions from my support group thought I would share with you and I guess all reading eh... the power of vulnerability Brene Brown, the price of invulnerability, listening to shame... Let me know...
    Glad to read things are easing up... Whew...
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    Mingy - your post was so funny about the stuff with my sister. I finally have a really good therapist these days and that is almost exactly what she said too! Sister is either just angry with her life or jealous or deflecting. So I'm just leaving that one alone for now...

    Lvg - ahhhh the Energies. Yep. So I think I read that Brene Brown one - she has a few good ones - I think mostly revolving around the shame stuff right? Super helpful hearing someone else give voice to it. May need to reread it again.

    As to lyfe and my trip to Portland that I've been gathering my thoughts on how to share re sleep stuff - so that whole part was basically a disaster... I'm used to just sleeping in my own bed in own place solo. And of course always being tired all the time still. But this time I'm sharing a pretty big hotel room and a half with YG and 3 year old...

    Apparently I wake up every hour...I eat in my sleep...I sleepwalk around...I tried to lay down on TOP of the kid in the wrong bed and wrong ROOM...and also now snore really badly. So no wonder I'm always tired...makes me tired just writing that. So that was def no bueno...have a therapist appointment this week, and see my p-doc next week. I think it's prob a side effect of the remeron...that stuff is pretty strong and puts you out but apparently not totally out...sigh.

    No Energies for me these days...

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    Hey UncleLeo,
    Geeze I'm not sure if I should laugh or cry... Thanks for reminding me that my 5 hours of sleep I get today that I'm grateful. Do you think it's the remeron? I know you have been having sleep issues which seems like forever for you now but did you always sleep eat walk? I just have no words... Google vulnerability Berne Brown pretty insightful nothing to do with shame in the way your thinking. As for your sister UncleLeo sometimes the people who are the closest to us are the most judgemental and demeaning, when this happens to me and it does I stop tell myself they just don't know any better so I show them love compassion and empathy hopefully one day after repeating those positive actions they just might get it.

    ~ If I don't show and act like I want to be treated how can I expect to get it back...
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    Sleep issues for days...errrr years...

    Well, now that I think about it I did sometimes eat in my sleep now and then. And talking to my mom, my dad did too and it's another fun hereditary thing... Anyway - stopped taking the Remeron to see if anything changes. We'll see. Sleeping less, but less groggy at least. And didn't enjoy working out every day but always gaining more and more weight...

    And Lvg- I swear I read that Brene Brown book. I gotta look around here and make sure it was same one...lemme see...I read Daring Greatly and maybe one other one...is that it? She's good stuff.
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    Morning UncleLeo,
    Ha hereditary hmm not sub related eh lol.. Can or should you just stop taking the remeron? Ohhh did you think I enjoyed walking working out sweating well I didn't and still don't grrr. But remaining vigilant in all areas of my life has some pretty awesome consequences as I'm a tad bit older than you I'm in the best shape I've ever been. Have some health issues I'm dealing with but all in all things are going pretty good. Talk about family Leo well I'm not sure all I put out on here but my cousin who was murdered drug related the kid had his day in court in short I was not welcomed in court because my family just does not understand how I can have empathy for this 22 year old drug addict murderer. Today and I believe only another addict can only truly see both sides as awful as it is. Two lives lost to this disease. Lost my train of thought ha yes Berne Brown same I haven't read her books just all her videos the Ted x one made me think of you and how you were feeling about your sister. Definitely good stuff my friend. So all that said what's good in the life of Leo today?
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    I hear ya Lvg. It drives me crazy watching so many people passing judgment on other people whose problems and suffering they know nothing about...

    Not sure what exactly is good right now... I think I'm on like day 3 or 4 of no Remeron...joints are hurting less, and less bloated - many that's a nasty drug. But will admit - it does help with both sleep and depression. And YG and really anyone else not on here (other than my clients ironically) just don't understand...it's funny my clients actually help me prob just as much as I help them.

    Not sure how long this Remeron withdrawal will last...so anyone with pep talks would be much appreciated. Thanx
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    Quote Originally Posted by UncleLeo View Post
    I hear ya Lvg. It drives me crazy watching so many people passing judgment on other people whose problems and suffering they know nothing about...

    Not sure what exactly is good right now... I think I'm on like day 3 or 4 of no Remeron...joints are hurting less, and less bloated - many that's a nasty drug. But will admit - it does help with both sleep and depression. And YG and really anyone else not on here (other than my clients ironically) just don't understand...it's funny my clients actually help me prob just as much as I help them.

    Not sure how long this Remeron withdrawal will last...so anyone with pep talks would be much appreciated. Thanx
    Hey Good Morning my friend,
    Well it doesn't drive me crazy I find it quite sad the stigma of addiction. I can so identify how much your clients help you that's just a small part of why I keep going to meetings. I remember you saying how do I have the sub talk, did you have that talk with yg? I know zero about antidepressants but I'm kinda thinking you should have a talk with the new therapist ya know... Us Addicts should not be self medicating or self diagnosing. Man you have come so far don't let a little sleep/eat walking gaining some weight get you down eh... Just say No to the cookies
    What's good you woke clean alive, job car with headlights ha relationships and everyday no matter what you face life on life's terms and if your not feeling grateful go back to day one on your thread... Wow just proud of you...
    I'm not sure how peppy that was but if you use your imagination I'm cheering with pom poms in hand...
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    Quote Originally Posted by UncleLeo View Post
    I hear ya Lvg. It drives me crazy watching so many people passing judgment on other people whose problems and suffering they know nothing about...

    Not sure what exactly is good right now... I think I'm on like day 3 or 4 of no Remeron...joints are hurting less, and less bloated - many that's a nasty drug. But will admit - it does help with both sleep and depression. And YG and really anyone else not on here (other than my clients ironically) just don't understand...it's funny my clients actually help me prob just as much as I help them.

    Not sure how long this Remeron withdrawal will last...so anyone with pep talks would be much appreciated. Thanx

    Hey Buddy!

    I was thinking things between you and YG were basically over as per your prior posts about the situation? It's nice that you spent time with her and her family. Right?

    It appears you're in a much better place these days. I sure hope so. You're getting out more and seem to be more upbeat. That's definitely a good thing. I hope many are reading your thread from beginning to now. It's eye-opening for sure, but shows just how tough some of us can be when we want what we want.

    You are the exact definition of going at your recovery just as hard as you did at chasing the drugs. And that's exactly what it takes to succeed.

    I hope things continue to improve for you my friend. You certainly deserve it!

    Randy
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    Hey Uncleleo
    Just checking in buddy! Always happy to touch base.
    I had cataract surgery on Friday the 13th. Lol. Next eye on the 23rd. It certainly was getting darker. This would be better!
    I hope you’re doing ok. I’m still taking tramadol as needed. Really helps. Old age is not for sissies—I think Bette Davis coined that one!
    Today, I’m baking a coffee cake. Stuck in the house until my eye adjusts. Got these huge dark glasses. Once I’m done with the eyes, my brother and niece will come down for a visit. Excellent!
    So, any plans for Spain? Lol
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