I have decided that I am ready to stop using suboxone. I used to use Percocet for about 2 years and then I switched to Suboxone, None of this was prescribed. I buy it off the street. I understand why I use and I know it is because I am just self medicading myself. I am about to be 32 in 2 days, I have 3 children who I love and using is a burden. I know that I cannot deal with withdrawl, I have tried it. I have decided instead on Monday to contact a pyschatist. I have reservations though. I am not very good at trusting anyone other than my SO with whats going on. I just need some advice as to how to bring this up to the doctor. I am also worried that my kids could get taken from me. I abuse drugs but I do not abuse my children and I am an active mother, I don't get high and ignore them. I really, really want to stop and I can't tapper off myself, I don't have the will power. I KNOW I need a professional to help me I am just really worried. I also am having issues with depression as well, and lately I have been preoccupied with death. By this I mean, I spend a lot of time at night thinking about what happens when we die and it scares me. And then I wonder if I think about this because I am becoming suicidal and I can't really talk to my SO about this. I am just so scared. I scared most about telling the psyciatrist all of this and then I have DCF at my door. My kids are my life and I would die without them. But I don't want to die from the drugs either. Can someone just give me some advice for when I see the doctor? I have never been to a therapist and I am not even sure what they are bound to report and what they are not. Thank you.